I am not sure what I am feeling right now.
Heartache? Anger? Frustration? Sad?
There is this pierce that I feel in my heart and I could feel it running through my arms and then my hands.
It is like an incredible energy inside needing to escape this body of mine. It feels like bursting, exploding.
This voice inside me is screaming but it is right inside, screaming, silently.
And all this energy is suppressed by the top of the body - the brain. Telling myself not to react, not to let my heart and my emotions overwhelm me.
But the energy needed an escape. It surfaces on my skin appearing as bruises and I could feel it escaping through my breath - a fast paced but hard breathing.
And yet, I could not figure what exactly I am feeling.
Maybe, it started out as heartache which produced sadness and it led to frustration that may have been the cause of anger. Hence, the energy.